Reflection

I tell you its damned, damned weird thing being a independent animator...I felt so extremely low when The Rescue was coming to a end. I’m not even entirely sure if I can tell you what it was exactly...I maybe just looked at all the faults and could see no good things in it at all.

The thing is that your so extremely tired with exhaustion that perhaps your brain isn’t quite working properly?...and suddenly the project is in a viewable state, a starting to end viewable state, that has taken such a long time to get to that point...if your very stubborn like me, you glance across at it and you kind of feel in a way that you are looking at something that’s just no where near finished or how you want it...this for the sleep deprived stubborn man is too much.

NOTE: Your deadline got you here though, deadlines are both great and not so great...great because they get you to work like a crazy man, and results certainly do start to happen...you get a lot done with the shear “oh sh*t, I’m approaching the deadline!!” thoughts running through your head.

NOTE: Not so great, because things end up being rushed, this for me was always the character animation which is really terrible because character animation is the very soul of a animation.

It seems that you need to distance yourself from the animation and when that eventually happens...as time goes on, time fixes problems...I started to get more positive about it...Much, much more positive about it. At the time though it was just hellish. I felt like giving up altogether. But with time...you finally see how much you’ve learned...you make a film, you learn something, you make another film, you learn something else. That applies to life as well.

And I started to get really happy. All the things that went wrong are now knowledge...raw knowledge that is vital stuff, you have to work at it for years to get at this stuff. It goes into the next project and things WILL get better.